It is hard to believe that more than a year has passed since I wrote here. A few months ago I tried to sign into my blog account, but was unable to "find" it. I just figured Blogger had deleted my account because it had been idle for so long and moved on.
Today, for some reason, I became determined to find it and to access my blog once again. It took some doing, but HERE I AM!! :)
To those of you who have followed and provided encouragement and support and then wondered what happened to me, I am sorry for disappearing. I could list all sorts of reasons as to why, but that all seems so unimportant today.
What feels important right now is my desire to return to writing here and to continue to share with you my journey. If you are willing to tag along again, I certainly would be grateful.
My heart and mind are full of many thoughts and feelings right now about where to begin. I cannot possibly cover an entire year in one entry; I wouldn't even begin to try, and you wouldn't like me very much if I did!
But I can begin, in part, where I left off.
My last entry detailed my first visit to Total Health Institute (THI), an alternative health and wellness clinic I chose to engage with for my journey towards recovering my health and building wellness. When I first visited THI, it was just the beginning - a day filled with tests and conversations. And that is where I left you, wondering what ever happened with me after that first day...
In brief, I endured (yes, endured) the testing, I returned several weeks later to THI to review the test results, and to discuss what it would look like to connect with THI in my health/weight loss journey. It took me a couple of months to commit to it and to resource the funds, but I did choose to contract with them and began my road to recovery. My first day as a client at THI was August 17, 2013.
I have much to reflect on regarding this journey. Thoughts and feelings I will share with you as I continue to walk this road. For now, I am happy to report that after a year of working with the kind and loving staff at THI, I have lost 65 pounds.
This is pretty remarkable and amazing.
And I am not done, yet.
It is not just about the weight. The weight is a symptom, an externalization of something deep inside that is broken, that was damaged, that was deeply harmed by evil.
This journey is about wellness, wholeness, holiness, and healing. It is about choosing to fill my body with the kind of food God meant for us to eat - real food, unprocessed food, fresh, whole, unadulterated, clean food. It is about belief in who I am, how God created me, what He says about me and how I ought to be treated. It is about believing that I am well loved and believing that I deserve kindness and goodness from myself and from others. It is about believing that hope and desire are good and meant for me, too.
As I continue to journey, I know I will discover so much more. I am excited. And I am nervous, even a little afraid. But what good journey doesn't have a little of each. And what truly good journey is not filled with loss and failure, goodness and grace, foes and friends, good and evil?
Some good battles have been fought. Some won. Some lost. More are yet to come. Will you join me in reclaiming what evil has attempted to steal and destroy? Will you join me in my fight? Battles were never meant to be fought alone.
With much Love and Blessings,
Erin
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